Being a Good Blogger

I suppose I haven't been such a good blogger here on this blog, what with most of it merely being me thinking aloud. Not to mention all the talking about myself- it wouldn't surprise me if I come across as some kind of a narcissist! Well, if I do, please forgive me. This is a record of what is going on in my mind- as I am affected by the various 'stimuli' around me. I am doing my best to be honest- this is 'my' space in which there is no need for me to hide anything. Yet even in my own space the basic laws of the universe still apply.

I am someone who is obsessed with being fair and obtaining harmony. Yes, you guessed it, my zodiacal sign is Libra. Librans always want to feel that they are being just and fair, they simply cannot live with anything else. Also, they love the arts- ugly surroundings can make me physically ill (which is why I go to Tokyo fairly selectively- a lot of that city is a hideous monstrosity where people may well be capable of feeling pleasure, but hide their happiness carefully). I love nature, art, culture, fine forms of life. I also love the high school kids I teach- yes, especially the girls, who all think I am very 'kawaii' or cute. I like things to be perfect. Even if someone else could objectively see that things are very much imperfect, I prefer to think that they are.

Here is my theory. God makes the world an puts us in it. So however strange or difficult or easy it may at times seem, really it is absolutely perfect for that time and place, for us to learn and grow. I am someone who always needs to feel that way so really I'm probably not very objective, at least while I'm in a situation. But who is anyway?!

Another thing I believe in is that if we are good to others, all the things we wish for for ourselves will come true. This is something like a belief in karma, but for me it is on a more personal level- not just a rule of the universe but also something that is being consciously implemented by numerous beings. I suppose what
I want most, aside fro material comforts and a safe and friendly environment, is self-knowledge. If I know myself then I know the universe which I am both part of and make for myself through my perceptions each moment.

Those of you who have seen my photography will see an obsession with moments. This is my crude attempt to get away from a linear view of the world and see time an events as unique flashes of God's love. As physicists study time and matter they find that ever smaller quantities exist, stretching into infinity it would seem. when I was younger I experimented with LSD and I could see paisley-like patterns covering everything- fractals. Probably there are many more fractals than we can see with our regular eyes. Like William Blake said- 'When the doors of perception are cleansed, everything will appear as it is, infinite'. This is something like the kind of perception I am aiming at

Perhaps all this sounds pretentious? Probably, it is- but I'm a Libran, so cut me some slack! This is what I enjoy thinking and talking about, even if I rarely have company that shares my enthusiasm- fortunately my girlfriend shares many of my interests, which is why we are perfect for each other. This space has a respect for God, the arts, culture, synchronicity, serendipity, angels, advanced extra-terrestrials, love, kindness, gentleness, sensitivity, innocence, magnificence, which you won't find in the society at large. But it's my blog and I'm the King here by special appointment. You're in my blog now, so you'll live by my rules. If you don't like it, lump it!